Sometimes I do feel anger, bitterness or jealousy and sometimes I don't.
Personally I try not to form any opinion about people based on what I think their economic status is. I try to judge people by their behavior first, and by their expressed values second, and by the quality of their thought third.
At present, I am fighting 'unkind thoughts' about a particular conservative radio talk show host. It will pass---it has passed before. There is truth --some--to what he says and even if there is 'none' he has the right to say it.
I like you have a right to not listen to people who irritate us. Exercise it.
I assume one of his principles is 'God helps those who help themselves'. Religion is not a topic he features in his daily lectures--he has mentioned it and I assume that he communicates with a Higher Power. He is philanthropic--has done much good anonymously I am certain of that. Supports those who assist others, etc.
I would refrain from the assumption that someone I do not know is "philanthropic anonymously". I base this comment on tax returns I have prepared for many clergy, churches, evangelic organizations, and other religious entities. Anyone who is substantially involved in philanthropy does it through an organization which files the legally required reports which are publically available and detail the organization, goals, and financial reports of the organization. If ever tempted to donate, read them first.
I somewhat object to the inference that if I had done as he did that I, too, would have accumulated great wealth and be enjoying 'golden years' without any regrets.
If someone implies that great wealth is God's reward for a particular course of financial action, I suggest you stop listening to that person.
I worked 'hard and long', utilized the talents and abilities I possessed, developed said talents and abilities --clearly not as well as I could/should have.
No one does as well as they could have. Remember that hindsight is the view from an asshole.
Yesterday, his last day before the trial run on 'being retired'--I heard him say,' You are either a maker or a taker.' Makers create jobs/private sector and the Takers include--those on the government dole, anyone who works/has worked for the government and anyone receiving payments of any kind from Social Security and related assistance.
This is simply right wing cant. If you listen to it, stop listening to it. If it bothers you, it is intended to. Your hurt feelings regarding these comments are self-inflicted injuries.
That hurts. Why was I not told this when I was in high school? At that time --the 60's women with 'careers' were rare. I chose a stereotypical female career and that seemed 'good'/good enough.
OK, you are admitting to buying into this rubbish. If you are a masochist at heart, find some other form of flagellation that is less injurious to your sense of self. If you are not a masochist, isn't it time you moved on to something that would make you happier rather than wallowing in this cesspool of regret?
To learn at this point in my life that I did something 'very wrong' and have actually been a 'parasite' on society for my entire life --that is something that doesn't sit well with me.
It should not sit well with you. You sound like a very decent person who has tried to do the right thing and treat people humanely. Each day is a whole new day to mess up in, the start of the rest of your life. Don't waste it on regret and negative feelings.
Happiness is to a large extent a learned behavior. If someone should have told you anything in school, they should have told you this. It's in the Declaration of Independence; you have a right to persue happiness; so go persue it with enthusiasm. Practice being happy. Practice being a pleasant person to be around. Find joy in ordinary things.
And stay away from Killjoy.