Bonnie said:
Curious Doug as to what led you to become a Buddhist? If it's not too personal a question?
No, it isn't. I grew up in a strict Pentacostal house and went to church up to 5 days a week for different things. When I was about 8, after an episode at the church where we watched an "End Times" movie in the church where children had been left behind after their Parents who believed were taken to Heaven, I began asking questions that began a path where I found I did not believe in the religion. Among such things the Church population was not fond of children of Divorce and we were often treated as second class members of the congregation as well. It built a relationship that was not conducive to religious advancement and promoted anger in my young mind.
It was around 11 when I was openly non-Christian, the only one I knew in our Sunday School sessions that would admit to such a state of being. They would often ask me to bring in my record collection to teach about the evils of music, what was funny about that is I knew of many of the kids in those same classes that had worse music than mine.
Even with all that I was still, at my mother's request, a member of the Art Ministry (I helped to create many Holocaust memorials and scenes during the Church's annual Isreal Awareness Day), the Prison Ministry, the Israeli Dance Team, A ASL translator, and took part in many of the church's plays and musicals. I was amazed, they all knew that I was not a Christian yet took me into each of these things and expected me to promote their teachings...
It was depressing for a non-Christian to be among so many strong believers, they had found something that I had not found. Their anchor was secure, yet I was continually being pushed toward something that didn't "sing" or "speak" to my soul.
When I joined the military I volunteered at the Psych Ward at Bethesda and met a young gentleman who had AIDS (needle sharing not homosexuality) who had become a Buddhist. I met and spoke with his Priest on several occassions and found that I had been a Buddhist long before I knew what it meant. Almost all of my personal beliefs were not only spoken of by Buddha but were promoted by him as well. The excitement was electrifying!
I finally knew what it was that those new Christians had found, that feeling they had the excitement of finding the place where The Architect spoke within! Like them I wanted to spread this feeling, but knew that I simply hadn't yet the knowledge I needed to become a teacher in this particular religion. Instead I have learned to promote each persons right to their central belief and speak about Buddhism only with those who ask...
Well, that is the short version of the story...
(Sorry all about the length of the post).