No, religion is a SCAM. It's been a scam the first time someone was frightened of a thunderclap and some asshole said, 'God must be angry with us".
Everyone should be alert that religion can be used as a scam--and that some can be wrong in interpreting the original intent.
And I pretty much got the idea that they were full of shit at an early age, like when I asked why the Gospels of Matthew and Luke had two different geneologies for Jesus, and got whacked over the knuckles with a wooden ruler. Or when I asked why God drowned all the babies in the flood, and was told it was because they were "Wicked" babies.
Bad teachers don't invalidate the fact that Matthew and Luke had different stories to tell in their genealogies. Matthew emphasized the kingship of Jesus, tracing his genealogy through kings. Luke was tracing Jesus' (as the son of God) genealogy to Adam. Today's confusion isn't helped by the fact that genealogy in Judaism there can easily be two fathers. Remember, if a man died without issue, a brother (or other close relative) married the wife and bore children for his dead brother/relative. Add a few other realities of genealogy and two genealogy (or more) are inevitable.
The question you asked about the babies and the flood could also have been answered differently. If the story is taken literally, there were eight survivors, four men and four women. Since local the supermarket with all the baby formula

had been washed away, how were eight adults supposed to take care of all the babies? I understand in those times, most babies until they were about two relied on their mother's breast milk.
But the key point was when my dad died, and chose to be cremated to not stick my mom with a huge funeral bill, the Priest refused to come to the cemetary and say a few words. Or when my mom died of cancer, and one of those nasty ruler-whacking lesbians said "God had to have a good reason!" That's when I decided that religion is a lot of evil lying ***** who need to be ******* mocked at every opportunity.
Keep in mind how the ruling about cremation came about: It originally started hundreds of years before your father lived when people made it an "In your face" ritual to provoke believers. It was a statement that there is no resurrection of the dead. As you note, in today's age, cremation is no longer a statement of belief, it is a pragmatic matter of finances. While burial is preferred, the Church no longer forbids cremation when it is for economic reasons.
I asked God for my mom not to die. She did anyway. I'm done with fakers and charlatans.
Yeah, my husband had the same prayer for his dad. When that wasn't answered, he pretty much decided that either God didn't exist, or if he didn't answer a little boy's prayer concerning his father, there really wasn't anything else he needed God for. He was of the mind that there probably isn't a God, but if there is, he wanted to show God that if he had to make it through this life without a father, then he could also make it through this life without a God.
The difference between you and my husband, is that he isn't bitter about it. I think I mentioned previously, his family hadn't practiced religion since before he was born. His much older brother and sisters were baptized, but he wasn't. And, unlike you, he didn't have poor teachers compounding the problem.
I don't know when and where you went to Catholic school, but by the time I went there no one was hitting students with rulers, and any question we asked (whether sincere or otherwise) were given a direct answer.
It doesn't sound as if you would ever want to hit a reset button on this--and given the amount of time it takes to do a true study, it might not be practical anyway--but there are some very good books out there on the Historical Jesus and whether or not the Resurrection is literal or figurative. I recommend Jewish commentary on the Old Testament, along with cultural and language studies. Choose a wide variety of New Testament commentary. I get that in all probability you have already made up your mind. May be too late anyway. I've been interested in all this stuff since I was a toddler. Cramming it all in late in life may not be feasible even if there were an interest.
In any case, I am truly sorry about the teachers you had, and that you lost your parents so early. That's hard. It is hard enough to lose those we love even once we reach adulthood.