Bonzi, do you know what you need? You need an affair. I am serious. I am not about to suggest anything involving me or my magnificent cock. I am not joking.
You are obviously in a protracted bummed out state. Personally, I think that you are depressed. Here are some other inferences that anyone with decent powers of observation can draw:
- Your husband is a bum;
- You are pre-occupied with sex;
- You have A LOT of time on your hands.
- You never have anything to say about your husband that casts him in a positive light, or that otherwise evidences affection toward him.
Also, let's consider some of the recent topics of your MANY threads on this site: male impotence; boredom in marriage; extra-marital affairs; headaches.
Baby, you be am sexual creature. You needs some dick. I am thinking that you probably need some black dickin', but I will leave the mechanics to you.
Hell, tell your husband. Maybe he will let you **** around. Are you familiar with cuckhold? It is a fetish where the husband has to sit there and watch his wife get drilled by another man, usually involving verbal taunts directed at the husband about how he cannot satisfy you while the poor husband jacks off while crying. It is hillarious! But, this may be just the kind of therapy you and your husband need at this point in your marriage.
Look, I have a wealth of knowledge on this subject matter. I'll be happy to help you out here. Hell, just do an Internet hook up.
We both know what is going on here. Your threads and posts scream at volume that you are aching to get dicked.
One last thing. Just so you can do this, and give yourself what you need without silly guilt, you need to renounce Jesus Christ as your lord and savior. You used to be an atheist? Do it again. **** it, why not? You can always go back. Jesus is like an abused spouse with low self-esteem. It does not matter what you do, he will always take you back. Hell, if he was real he would probably be into cuckhold! Guilt is stupid and is of no utility, as it only arises after the fact; therefore, it is strictly punitive in nature. Punishing yourself is not logical.
Go for it, honey! Go get your flower pollinated!