Same boat bud, same boat.
I lived in a rural area, and was homeschooled. Never had any friends growing up, so I became super thoughtful, introverted and pensive. In a way, I'm glad I'm like that.
When I was 17, I started working for a guy who I became very good friends with, and made a couple friends working there, but all were at least 15 years older than me. Girls? Forget it. I was lovesick over a girl who worked in town, and for two years I said nothing.
Flash forward to present day, and I have moved out of state and got a real job, a factory job. I've made three good friends, but they're still a couple years older than me. I'm the youngest person working in the whole plant, on any shift. Somehow I'm more reliable than most. Different rant for another day.
The point is, I feel ya. It's hard to be alone for some. For me, I prefer to be left alone, and don't like going out on a limb really. One of my friends knows about my girl problem, and he said that he would gladly take me to a strip club one night we had off. I had a very hard time trying to weasel my way out of that one. Another friend asked if I wanted to go to a car show, which I politely declined. I think they're trying to help now that I think about it. I just usually prefer being alone out in a field, swinging a metal detector, and getting stung by yellow jackets.
I've accepted my loner life. Either you have to come out of your shell, or be a shadow dweller such as myself.
You don't have to be alone, but if you don't get out there and let Cupid's arrow hit ya, you will be alone.
