Does that mean that we both have to make a change back to believing the bibles are the literally true word of the god?
I won't, but I don't think you can waste much time thinking about it! You know that you're sinning by believing your bibles are just allegory and lies. (not saying is the CC's intent on evolution)
So take the big fish and Jonah story for example. One of our truly faithful on this board has provided an answer that reconstructs that story into being acceptably believable.
"The god made a special fish for Jonah" You don't have to believe it, just don't say!
Fwiw my friend, you committed yourself when you accepted Darwin's evolution. You should have stayed safe with Meri and her refusal to be pranked into committal. Only Meri herself knows if she's buying into Darwin. The CC deems that position to be safe for being raptured. Now you're fkd if you can't find a way to crawl back to the god!