I don't know what I think, I believe in God but I am not religious and I don't know why things happen the way they do. I think there is something greater than myself out there in the universe, but there's been a lot of tragedy in my life, and I just try to move through it. I have had some joy too and I try to remind myself of those good moments and time frames in life.
Suicide changes families forever, nobody in my family is the same, we have all changed and been affected deeply by my sister's death.