It's not "a millionth" re-write on the latest go at the opening words of the first 1/3 of the first chapter. I have to admit that it took me over four years to take good advice. Rule number one, and the most admonent advice from my editors, is that if writing a novel based on a memoire is that you must keep the protagonist sympathetic and avoid trying to make yourself look like you have everything under control...AKA you come off as a narcissistic asshole. My first and longstanding opening displayed an unrealistic and untrue depiction that no matter how fucked up the events were in the act of stealing the Cessna from Boeing field, I was completely under control. Which was obviosly not the case. I clung to those stupid words for a very long time. It was just yesterday talking with a friend that wanted to publish my book that reason came to me out of the blue.