With Nathan, I had them put me under fully, because I knew that if I would likely have the mother of all panic attacks during surgery, and as I had pre-eclampsia, with very high BP, that would not be good. Plus the fact that they had been trying to induce me for nearly 2 days, with little progress, my BP was way up because I was having attacks left and right. This time, I have my c-section scheduled. Now that I kind of know what to expect as far as post-surgery, I am willing to be just numbed like they do with most women. However, I am kind of, well, scared, because of the whole environment of the OR and the dr's in scrubs and such. I am a hypochondriac as it is, and hospitals in general freak me out because they remind me of death (bad experience as a kid-details some other time) so I am afraid that I will at some point during the procedure, freak out, and cause problems. I guess I am wondering what to expect this time, if i do opt to just be numbed from chest down? What does it feel like? Is it like when the dentist numbs your face for dental work, and it feels like there is a gaping hole in your face, as well as cold? I am kinda worried that I will freak out at the fact I cannot feel my body, or the anesthesia (sp?) needle will miss and hit something major and really paralyze me or something worse. I really want to be awake for this one because I missed the first few moments, really first half hour, of Nathan's little life because I was still under the anesthesia. I dunno. I just want to be brave, but panic attacks come on without warning, so I don't know what to do.