It was natural for you to resent her and wishing she would retire. Don't beat yourself up for being a good worker and expecting others to follow suit. If you did tell others how you felt, my bet would be that they initially felt the same way and are looking forward to someone replacing her that can handle the work load.She was very, very old and very, very sick.
She was rude to me.
She did not get the work done, it was left piling up everywhere.
Every time I looked at her computer she was viewing something non-work related.
The boss took her out on cigarette breaks on her wheelchair. It was obvious he cared for her very much.
She had been with the firm for 25 years and there was no way he was ever going to fire her no natter how much she goofed off and slept at her desk.
Every day I wished she would go away, I wanted her gone, I wanted her to retire.
On Monday evening she passed away.
And now I feel guilty, because I wanted her gone, and now she is gone.
I can tell no one at work how I feel.