How sad that you never discovered that the answer exists within you. The Lord is not a deistic god, not a doom or destiny or fate. The Lord does exist and simply wants nothing more than you to serve the universal by serving others selflessly. Morality and Philosophy are part of that universal good, so maybe you will come in by another door. I certainly hope so.
Oh, your Lord exists. Of that I have no doubt, Jake. I'm just telling you that he doesn't give a **** about you, your life, or anything else on this worthless ball of rock.
Tough to serve the "universal good" when I'm spending all my time trying to keep my own head above water. Especially when it's supposedly your Lord who put me in the position to have to do so.
Don't hope too hard and don't waste your time praying for me. I'd rather spend an Eternity in Hell than a single moment in the presence of your Lord & God.
I am sorry that was your experience. BUT it isn't everyone's and your reality won't change someone else's truth for what they make of it.
No, my experience won't change anyone else's truth. At least not until the stand in Judgement and their eyes are open to the reality of Truth. My only hope is that in that moment many of you realize that the Truth WAS revealed to you in some very small way during your life. Who knows, maybe it will even sink in deep enough for you to remember it in your next life.