I'm about 50 (in July), I've been an atheist for the last 2 or 3 years.
I've also been fighting cancer for the last 6 years, and in all likelihood I'll die in the next one or two years, possibly sooner (these things are hard to judge).
I have no fear of death personally, I've done pretty much everything I want to do in life, with the exception of seeing my 3 boys grow into young men. I've got financial preparations that will carry my family through without much alteration to lifestyle.
I don't understand why you would think an atheist fears death....we believe nothing comes after so why fear it?
I am sorry to hear of your battle with cancer, CTSV. When people came to Jesus or brought their sick loved ones to Him he said, Only believe. One man said to him, Lord! I believe! Help my unbelief! It is not unusual to find someone struggle with unbelief. It isn't a problem. It is a spirit. It's called a spirit of unbelief. Spirits are demons and they are also referred to in the bible as serpents and scorpions. The good news is that believers have power over serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy. It is written in Luke 10:19 and again in Luke 10:20 it says that the spirits are subject unto the Believer but that we should not rejoice over that but rather that our names are written in the Lambs Book of Life.
First, I bind Satan in his operations against you and command him to cease and desist right now in Jesus name. I bind the spirit of unbelief operating in you right now and hold the Blood of Jesus Christ against that spirit of unbelief, in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth.
Let's talk about unbelief and how it can get into a believers life. It comes from a root of bitterness. Sometimes we come into contact with people who have a root of bitterness and it defiles others - even creating unbelief in our hearts which is why Proverbs declared Guard your heart with all diligence for out of flow the issues of life. Other times the root of bitterness is a personal matter and it comes when we get deeply hurt and we do not realize it is Satan who has sent the offense as a stumbling block. Why? Because it gives a foothold to Satan to come against our minds and hearts and it even gives him legal grounds to afflict our bodies with sickness & death. if a root of bitterness takes hold? It has to be destroyed through prayer because it has to be taken up from the root.
Do you understand? What are your thoughts about this? Do you remember when you first decided you did not believe any longer?
I was a mildly spiritual person until about age 40 ish
About that time I became agnostic
In my later 40's I became atheistic
I don't perceive myself as a person with bitterness in his heart. I percieve myself as a person who basis his decisions on logic,
and who develops new positions over time...primarily related to gaining wisdom through age.
As an example in my 20's and 30's I used to drink relatively modestly...I really don't drink at all anymore because there is zero upside.
My folks got divorced when I was 12...so you can make of that what you wish
I have personal pride in my accomplishments as a man
- college graduate
- MBA
- Rapid advancement in a very large corporation
- I did not hold back in my 20's from a headonistic lifestyle, but have no concerns about that now.
- Been married to my wife for 20 years, never cheated
- Have three great boys, all unique, with their own (still developing) personalities
- My own father and mother are proud of my life and accomplishments
So from my perspective at least there is no deep seated cause for this lack of spirituality, just life and experience.