So... You have a small rooster. I had a sense that your anger and self hate was a function of your failures with women.
Have you considered dating Moslem women? With their heads covered, you won't feel so inadequate.
Hollie,
This story is a bit off topic, but I need to tell it again, it is a story that needs to be told and retold. And your comment led me to think of the story again.
Sometimes, my husband listens to Iranian internet radio, when it is available, broadcasts from various stations, some in Europe actually largely funded by the US, they are stations trying to, in part, get out news of the Iranian human rights abuses carried out against Iranian political prisoners.
A woman had just had a baby, they arrested her for some political crime, and carried her to prison, with her baby, which is common in the Middle East, to keep babies with their mothers in jails. They did not even give her diapers, she had to wash her head covering by hand over and over and use it for a diaper. They would take her to interrogate her, with her baby there, and burn her with cigarettes, and rape her, over and over. She would cover her head with the head covering she had been using for a diaper, then, because it would not be appropriate to have her head not covered when she was present with these men or when she was being raped. Further, it would not be appropriate for them to rape her with her head covering removed.
You will never see me defending human rights abuses of Iran against political prisoners there.
Sherri