"The Birthing"
(Recently discovered in the papers of Frank Marshal Davis!)
Once upon the savanna dreary,
While I waddled bloated and bleary
From my bed to the lamp across the floor
There came upon my body a contraction,
A sudden wrenching action
As of someone violently ripping, ripping at my gut below
Tis a cramp I uttered, wrenching at my gut below
To be certain, I'll sup on wild boar nevermore
Within that hovel modest, my life changed that hot dry August
Each step quickening as I paced that sawdust floor
Homesick and forelorn I awaited the arrival of my firstborn
And thought I must be damned, damned forever
Since my parents named me Stanley Ann,
Perennial wallflower Stanley Ann,
Never a part of anyone's manly plan, nor nothing more
Now within that quickened pace I'm making, I can feel my water breaking
Thus explaining, sustaining me now against contractions discomfort,
With surely more in store
I call, I squall, I scream to that midwife weary,
She harkened by my urgent query.
She's delivered Zulu princes and her chanted voodoo convinces me,
A royal birth is imminently proceeding
A royal birth is imminently proceeding
This i kept repeating, nothing more
That night we did our duty, delivering that child imbued with nobility and beauty
My husband named him, and thus claimed him for this continent ever so dark at my door
What would be his future here, my conscience questioning, foggy and unclear.
Are our destinies truly here, duly here, cruelly here
All my greatest fears are collecting, now and forever more
I, the vessel, would then wrestle, wrestle with the bureaucratic beating I took in my next meeting with tribal leaders I failingly implore
'You can try Chad or Sudan,
We'll not toss our record in the trash can.'
But not defeated I never retreated,
Until I found the willing palm that needed greasing with my last 10 shillings and nothing more
I recalled those words of Toto,
To another who lost her mojo,
"Dorothy, matters not the man behind the canvas, just get your ass back to Kansas"
Tho I fear I've severed my ties to that distant shore.
In my stomach a gnawing awing feeling like a cancer,
And of mom's phone, there was no answer.
Mom please help me.
I beseech thee.
Now there are three
And we have no finances
Now we need money evermore
She had been in Maui, not our part of Hawaii,
But upon her return we did discern
She had concern for the safety of the child I bore.
She said the words I languished to hear, then played upon my anguish and fear,
"Yes, we love you honey, and
I'll send you money for Honolulu
If only you will leave that crazy Zulu tribesman
Take your young son, escape that
unholy, loathly one and see him nevermore"
When time came at last,
And not a second past
I summoned surprising secret courage unknown theretofore
Carrying nothing but Barack with me, we peered at that old DC-3 in Nairobi
As the whirling props hummed, "escape!"
Another daunting hulk, haunting me, taunting me to escape
My life in Kenya, my rejection
A life from Kenya required protection and I would return nevermore