How ding ever got over the realization that Santa Claus wasn't real, is something that blows my mind. But from there, instead of learning to be skeptical and maybe doing some research first, he went to promoting another impossible omnipotent figure that looks and sounds just like Santa (but thinner).
Well...in his defence, I promoted that same fairy tale until seminary. The sad truth is our standard education system - right up through university - doesn't exactly teach, or encourage critical thinking, or individuality. it teaches students to memorise facts, and figures, and to regurgitate the thoughts, and experiences of other people. It isn't until grad school, and beyond that anyone is ever taught to actually think for themselves. Unfortunately, for most it is much too late by then. Indoctrination is far too set in. Fortunately, for me, when I set out to translate, and understand the Bible, it forced me to examine what the Bible said, in detail, and how it compared to itself, other religious writings, and science. Unfortunately, for religion, it was found wanting. From that shocking reality, it didn't take long for the whole house of cards to fall down.
After I left Seminary, and Christianity behind, I still found myself with an emotional need to believe in "something more". That desire is deeply ingrained into usas we are raised. Since I was against Christianity, I decided like many young people that this meant I was to be
anti-Christian, and what is more "anti-Christian" than Satanism right? So, I went out, and got my Satanic Bible (I actually still have it crammed on a shelf somewhere in my library; I haven't so much as cracked the cover in decades), found a satanic church, and began immediately prostrating myself to our Glorious Dark Lord. It didn't take long at all, for me to come to a somewhat unsettling realisation: I was still allowing myself to be stuck inside the same box that I grew up in. In order to accept the existence of Satan, one must
first accept that the Christian theology is accurate. Well, here's a sobering reality for you Satanists: if the Christian theology is accurate, then this story has already been written, and
Your. Guy. LOST!!! Being a Satanist, and betting that this will, somehow, enrich your life is rather like betting that the Cleveland Indians are going to beat the Cubs this year. We already know how that game turned out, but, hey! If you want to
intentionally make a bet on the losing team, feel free.
So, Christianity was irrational. Satanism is just plain stupid. It was time to climb out of my box. I saw no purpose to Judaism; that's as much a cultural/racial thing, as it is a religious thing. Besides, Judaism is just a forerunner of Christianity, and I had already decided that version of a "higher power"was irrational. I studied Islam for a bit. It didn't take long at all to discover that Islam is just another flavour of the same theology that gave us Judaism, and Christianity. So, since the Christian concept of divinity didn't do it for me, which automatically discounted the Jewish concept of divinity, guess where that left Islam. From there I moved on to Buddhism,Hinduism, even Shintoism, Zoroastrianism, and Rastafarianism. All of those contained within their beliefs their own rational dissonances.
I then discovered, Neo-Paganism. With paganism, I found a religion that seemed to follow the natural laws of physics, and the universe. Over the last decade, or so, I have come to understand that the divinity aspect of paganism is more metaphorical, and allegorical than factual. Hence, I am today an atheist who worships nature.
Theists all seem to think that the only reason one becomes an atheist because some "event" happened in their life, they "got mad at God", and their rejection of religion is some emotional rebellion, like a child throwing a temper tantrum. They can't conceive of the atheist who has rejected religion as a matter of reason, and logic.