A dear online friend of mine passed away yesterday. It was announced at another board...where I originally came from.
He and I started out as friends, became enemies, became friends again. This spanned about 14 years or so. I knew he was ill because the admin of his board tracked me down at a blogging place saying my friend needed to talk to me...so I did get in touch and we reaffirmed the long battle he and I fought along with the friendship that became a result of it.
I have had a few online friends die. But this one? This one is going to be tough. The internet is lacking one fine man now. And I am going to miss him very much.
There was this online poster I knew on another board, whom I debated with often, and we had gotten rather careless about our words to each other. Well, he made an announcement one day that he had cancer, was terminal and was given only weeks to live.
It was at that moment that I realized that all the ugly words we might have exchanged were now hanging over me like a big boulder, because one of us was now hurting badly. I apologized to him and he was gracious enough to tell me not to worry, that it was all forgotten. He passed away not too long after that (a family member informed Admin and it was relayed)and it was a sad day for many of us. So, I kinda understand what you might be feeling. Even though we don't know each other personally, we do have some things in common - mostly being human and deserving respect.