God is everywhere. All we have to do to meet him is open our hearts.
But hearts are hardened in this modern world of ours.
Life is cheapened by the easy availability of abortion, and the influence of that attitude has spread into every aspect of our lives. We literally no longer see our neighbors as children of God anymore, but as meat packages with no inherent value. Our indifference to suffering of others is a symptom of this.
My heart is open, yet I've never seen God. And don't tell me something stupid like I'm not looking hard enough. I'm looking plenty hard.
I can't help you with this because I have always been a believer, I was raised to be a Catholic and I've always believed in God, and really I've taken that for granted.
While I am angry with God and angry at the Catholic Church, I never doubted that God was real or the Catholic Church is God's true Church.
I think my faith in God was bolstered by my investigation of miracles that have happened over the last 2000 years. The one that stands out the most is the Miracle of the Sun at Fatima. There were 70,000 witnesses, and many of them were Freemasons and atheists, hostile to the Catholic faith, and yet they saw the miracle.
This miracle came at a critical junction, for it was at the cusp of the 20th century, a modern century full of horrors carried out with modern technology. Millions upon millions of people died violently in the 20th century, through war and genocide, and Fatima was like a beacon to Catholics that yes, God is still with us despite all that.