I've done more crazy shit than you could ever dream of
There is no way either of us can test that improbable theory so there is no point in arguing over who has "done more crazy shit".
Great. At least one of you is interesting.
I have known some serious people in my time that would make you piss yourself.
Again with these wild theories.
Like I said, you're a poseur, real people who are Satanists...and yes, I've known a couple, are entirely different from your little act.
When did I ever say I am a "Satanist"?
Many Satanists are pathetic. The Laveyan Satanists are usually just pissed off Athiests who hate humanity, know nothing of spirituality, have massive egos for little to no reason, and are afraid to break the law. Some are alright though. TOS, COS, etc are, for the most part, a disgrace to the Left Hand Path.
Luciferians can be great. Many of them understand what its like to explore and embrace the extremes of what the culture around them considers to be "good or evil". The best Luciferians, in my opinion, do extremely beneficial things for people, and extremely criminal things to others, in attempt to understand the illusions of morality. Sadly, many of these Luciferians are too much philosophy and too little action. But I do love many Luciferian rituals.
Traditional/ Theistic Satanists can be either crazy or brilliant, and rarely in between, and sometimes both. Devil worshipers, Satanic Pagans, etc... There are so many variants to this Spiritual perspective. This type of spirituality is so thrilling and magickal! The mind has the ability to create a world of Spritual Beings or adopt an already existing Pantheon, and fully interact with them, more than people realize. It can have profound effects on the world around you. Many of these Satanists are solitary but others form Covens or are initiated into special Orders like the MLO (TOB) and other more secretive clans.
Then there is the Order of Nine Angles.
O9A took the core of Satanism and pushed it further than Anton Lavey or Michael W Ford ever could. So much in fact, its not even really Satanism. Its too criminal for "Satanists", too extreme. It is taught "The outer form is not the essence". "Satanism" is an outer form, but what is the essence? It is what O9A took and evolved into something most Satanists never even dream of exploring. Various O9A Nexions like WSA352 each contribute to the whole and constantly evolve the "system", keeping it diverse and fresh enough for new generations to embrace so that it will thrive for ages into the future.
So yes.
I have explored these things over the years, but I have learned from Right Hand Path religions as well. I look for the greatness in every religion, absorbing the strengths and discarding the weaknesses. I know many Ways to walk the Left Hand Path, and I know many Ways to walk the Right Hand Path, but I do not claim to know every Way. No human knows every Way.
O9A, Paganism, and Christianity are what "religions" I "embrace" the most. "Embrace"... not "submit to". They grant me the most freedom and the most appealing culture to forge into my own beliefs. My own "Path" outside of Left and Right. Outside of "Good and Evil".
I am no "Satanist". That is such a limited and restricting term that could not even begin to accurately describe my Nature. I belong to the neither the "Light" nor the "Darkness."