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wonderwench
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Originally posted by Joz
I'm going to tell you what most people who know me don't know. I'm not where I use to be. Since you don't know who I am, what you think will not affect me emotionally.
I went to church school after my parents started to church; I was about twelve. I had a christian marriage and when I had children they too went to church school. My husband & I worked for the church, and school, and tried to live as right as we could. I believe example works much better than hitting someone over the head with the Bible.
Remember those recent 'tragedies' I mentioned? Suddenly things begain to spiral. I lost my business after an auto accident that required me to have six surgeries. Three years later, my marriage of 21 years ended. Maybe we weren't 'christian' enough. Speculating does no good. Two years later my father, whom I knew only to have the Hong Kong flu back in the 70's, was diagnosed with cancer and died. And then 14 months later my youngest son , three weeks before he was fifteen, dropped dead. I breathed into him his last breath of air.
You think I havent' questioned God, His existence, His 'plan';...... I was always told that God had a thousand ways to answer a prayer or to work out problems and THIS was the best He could come up with?
I can't prove God exists any more than you can prove He doesn't. But I know He does.
I still have my oldest son and I've also been give Musicman. I KNOW he was a Godsend.
I'm sorry, but I don't feel like talking anymore. My heart hurts.
I bid you peace.
Joz, you have certainly endured and dealt with more tragedy than most of us face in our lives. Having a relationship with God has clearly given you strength and comfort. My heart goes out to you and I wish you an easier path in life from now on.