I cant imagine what has made you such a horrible person. You have no joy in your life and are filled up with hate. I have many people in my life who are friends, something you obviously don't have and have never wanted. You're a sad, pathetic person, but for some reason, I can't feel sorry for you because you wallow in it.
What made me this way? Life. More specifically the human beings I have met in my life. I learned early in life thst the human heart is filled with evil. That’s what happens when you’re born with an obvious, uncorrectable birth defect. In my case a very dark port wine stain that covers pretty much 100% of the front hemisphere of my skull.
I have found anger and hatred to be far more useful motivation in life than anything else. Those emotions helped me finish high school, get a college degree and move on to a productive kife. Things most Sturge Weber Syndrome patients never do.
I have a very large group of acquaintances but very few I would call friends. Tough not to when you’re the only person they’ve ever seen who looks like you do. Those few friends are held close and know I would kill for them; because it has taken them years to get close to me. That works quite well for me.
I’m not looking for your pity, your sympathy or anything like that. Those are emotions of weakness and I will have nothing to do with them.