The problem is you see wonder and beauty in the universe that does not exist. The universe is not some smooth-running well-designed precision clock. It is a hodgepodge of random collisions and explosions. A perpetual commotion machine, if you will. If a designer designed it that way, it surely is a reflection of the insanity or incompetence of the designer.I will totally give you that, Foxfyre. I agree 100%.
I'll simply add that if God IS, I'll bet anyone a dollar that He/She is as disappointed in the "Holy Books" of humanity and how they have been used during the last 10,000 years as I am.
Based on that assumption, I can only conclude that: If God IS, He either does not care, He is impotent, or our history of suffering is EXACTLY what He wanted. Either way, The "God" of The Bible turns out to be as big a joke as the "God" of The Koran, the "Gods" of the heathens and the original "Gods" of Earth, Wind & Fire.
YouTube - ‪Earth Wind And Fire - Shining Star(1975)‬‏
Simply put, mugs like me can't lose - we can have our carnal cake and eat it too.
Or, there is NOTHING to look forward to after death and, whether it's a gift from Mom or Dad, a life spent worshiping a book and not lived with gusto and risk represents a waste.
But mugs like you can learn just like mugs like me learned that the fundamentalist view of the Bible is deeply flawed. I have concluded that we have none of the original manuscripts because the one I called God knew that those manuscripts would be worshipped like idols. But in the hands of a dedicated and competent scholar willing to look at the larger picture, the Bible becomes a magnificent collection of literature including law, history, allegory, metaphor, poetry, imagery, wisdom slogans, prophecy, and the deepest and most anguished experiences of people trying to get through life then as we sometimes endure trying to get through life now.
I think a Creator God who created all of this and all of us certainly does care for many reasons but not the least of which is our ability to appreciate the wonder and beauty of the universe and our ability to love and care and appreciate even people, creatures, other forms of life we never will know or that which we will never experience. Without that I am quite sure that we would have utilized our capacity to destroy everything by now. And we have messed things up royally quite a bit and I think a Creator God had to allow that in order for us to experience freedom and love which, for most of us, is all that makes life worth living.
But that is if one recognizes and accepts a Creator God.
There is also the school that all that exists is itself a living thing that controls all or part of all that has been, is, or will be. Or that some undefinable or unexplainable intelligence--an intelligence that is not necessarily a personal God such as the God of the Bible--is guiding the process.
It is that possibility that both the religious fundamentalists and the science religionists so strongly reject because it requires an open mind to conceive of such a possibility.
And your trouble seems to be that you are so bogged down in some kind of scientific religious fundamentalist dogma, you are unable to see the wonder and beauty that is in the universe.