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In my teenage I have lost all of my family, my brothers and my sisters. My father was a very hard working parent but did not know how to raise a family of six; he was much into working and spent very few hours with us. My father had a dark life with his own family. My story is a very long story and I will give you some examples of my life and my family as well. As I was a young kid I knew nothing about life my parents were trying to survive by feeding us and nurturing us, but like most parents is all too well known with any family ups and down. Anyway my father was a very hard man; my mother loved my father very much, but through a lot of pain and suffering.
I began to fall away from my family; I did not know which way to go so I started to hang out.
The people that I grew up with also had a hard time's in there life as will so like any teenager we have some kind of group, some groups were good and some groups were bad.
I did not have much of opportunity as I wished; I saw many different families and how wonderful their parents were.
I dreamed of one day that my parents would put away their differences and began to care for about us, as does wonderful parents that I saw.
Most of my teenage life was looking for something different, but it never happened. One day my father had a change he was not himself, we use the play as kids but we were much in our own world, as I grew weary of my future I started to experiment with drugs to escape, you know where this path leads to, but I didn't know the difference I had no type of inspiration in my life. Every day was different more destructive than creative.
I lost interest in school and I was failing, my parents were very hard on me but did not give me the love of the attention I needed to grow.
My father tried anything to get rid of me and every time he fails. Instead of helping me and asking me what I want from my life he just kept abusing me. One day I got in trouble with the law and he punched me serially. You would think that a father will nurture his children to be better it just didn't happen. He continues to make me feel worthless so I continue to go down in my life.
Again I get in trouble with the law and this time my father's worry more over and put me away and the boys home for troubled kids, life just got much harder than ever. I spent 2 1/2 years in troubled homes, but as things started to get little better for me there was hope.
When I got home from all those years my father did not change. I stood awhile with my family but they have changed too, my father hurts so much of his family that I finally stood up and then told him that he must stop hurting us, of that day, he threw me completely out of my family. You would think that things will be a better this way but in a sense no, I love my family so much.
I has spent from that day eight years of my life in the wilderness, I cannot compare my life to yours they got much worse, I was about to give up hope. For a very long time I have been away from my family my mother finally divorce my father my brothers and sisters who broken up we became strangers to each other, I have lost two brothers one of age 27 who had a great future, and another brother age of 30.
My father to loss his life in a car accident, still today my mother still lives happily with the Lord. I am still young and wanted so much to have a family of my own, I got married but also there was harsh in my marriage and still today, I have a beautiful daughter from this marriage. When my daughter was born I didn't know how to do this, my wife left me to raise our daughter while she went to work. Five years have passed to raise our daughter I needed to escape from all of my past.
I needed Jesus so much my life; I have taken my daughter to preschool so that I had time to think. I went to people who knew Jesus and asked many questions about salvation. I started to pick up a Bible and trying where to begin. My education was very poor, very hard to understand, suddenly I had the urge to confess, every day when I took my daughter to preschool and my wife went to work I started to confess my sins to God, I did not stop until I was heard somehow, every day I'd cry and called out to God.
It took me months and months to reach God, I broke down and cried.
I could not stop confessing all of my sins, there where so painful and even now, a deep conviction in my soul, my heart, finally after all those months something happened.
After those days I could not sleep, and I still cant sleep, who could I tell? Anyway a year went by, trying to read the bible, hoping, and crying and still confessing, months later something happened to me again. I said to myself when well this stop, another experience, a dream state, some kind of strange Phenomenon. Do you know this spiritual Phenomenon? I do hope! Thank You
In my teenage I have lost all of my family, my brothers and my sisters. My father was a very hard working parent but did not know how to raise a family of six; he was much into working and spent very few hours with us. My father had a dark life with his own family. My story is a very long story and I will give you some examples of my life and my family as well. As I was a young kid I knew nothing about life my parents were trying to survive by feeding us and nurturing us, but like most parents is all too well known with any family ups and down. Anyway my father was a very hard man; my mother loved my father very much, but through a lot of pain and suffering.
I began to fall away from my family; I did not know which way to go so I started to hang out.
The people that I grew up with also had a hard time's in there life as will so like any teenager we have some kind of group, some groups were good and some groups were bad.
I did not have much of opportunity as I wished; I saw many different families and how wonderful their parents were.
I dreamed of one day that my parents would put away their differences and began to care for about us, as does wonderful parents that I saw.
Most of my teenage life was looking for something different, but it never happened. One day my father had a change he was not himself, we use the play as kids but we were much in our own world, as I grew weary of my future I started to experiment with drugs to escape, you know where this path leads to, but I didn't know the difference I had no type of inspiration in my life. Every day was different more destructive than creative.
I lost interest in school and I was failing, my parents were very hard on me but did not give me the love of the attention I needed to grow.
My father tried anything to get rid of me and every time he fails. Instead of helping me and asking me what I want from my life he just kept abusing me. One day I got in trouble with the law and he punched me serially. You would think that a father will nurture his children to be better it just didn't happen. He continues to make me feel worthless so I continue to go down in my life.
Again I get in trouble with the law and this time my father's worry more over and put me away and the boys home for troubled kids, life just got much harder than ever. I spent 2 1/2 years in troubled homes, but as things started to get little better for me there was hope.
When I got home from all those years my father did not change. I stood awhile with my family but they have changed too, my father hurts so much of his family that I finally stood up and then told him that he must stop hurting us, of that day, he threw me completely out of my family. You would think that things will be a better this way but in a sense no, I love my family so much.
I has spent from that day eight years of my life in the wilderness, I cannot compare my life to yours they got much worse, I was about to give up hope. For a very long time I have been away from my family my mother finally divorce my father my brothers and sisters who broken up we became strangers to each other, I have lost two brothers one of age 27 who had a great future, and another brother age of 30.
My father to loss his life in a car accident, still today my mother still lives happily with the Lord. I am still young and wanted so much to have a family of my own, I got married but also there was harsh in my marriage and still today, I have a beautiful daughter from this marriage. When my daughter was born I didn't know how to do this, my wife left me to raise our daughter while she went to work. Five years have passed to raise our daughter I needed to escape from all of my past.
I needed Jesus so much my life; I have taken my daughter to preschool so that I had time to think. I went to people who knew Jesus and asked many questions about salvation. I started to pick up a Bible and trying where to begin. My education was very poor, very hard to understand, suddenly I had the urge to confess, every day when I took my daughter to preschool and my wife went to work I started to confess my sins to God, I did not stop until I was heard somehow, every day I'd cry and called out to God.
It took me months and months to reach God, I broke down and cried.
I could not stop confessing all of my sins, there where so painful and even now, a deep conviction in my soul, my heart, finally after all those months something happened.
After those days I could not sleep, and I still cant sleep, who could I tell? Anyway a year went by, trying to read the bible, hoping, and crying and still confessing, months later something happened to me again. I said to myself when well this stop, another experience, a dream state, some kind of strange Phenomenon. Do you know this spiritual Phenomenon? I do hope! Thank You
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