35 Decent, proper years?????? There is nothing decent or moral about fighting for survival until you die an early, often violent death. But if you think that is preferable, there's nothing stopping you from moving somewhere to the Amazons and trying to scratch a living fighting jaguars. You obviously don't like society so have at it.
Life was never intended to be fun, easy, happy or pleasant. This whole life is a test of the Soul. Nothing more.
I go out of my way to avoid your Society as much as I can, interacting only with what I need to survive and never taking charity or assistance from others unless absolutely necessary. Unfortunately my medical issues and my wife have brought far more of your Society’s problems into my life than I would prefer. If I could go back in time, different choices would be made and I would not be here.