Lokiate
Super Beast
When my ex left, I locked myself in the apartment, and slumped into a motionless state on my recliner where I stared at a blank wall for an unknown period of time. At some point I realized that they cut the power, because I snapped out of it long enough to notice that it was really fucking cold. I grabbed a blanket and sat in the recliner again, but getting up and moving around kinda killed the moment.I thought maybe people had stories of how they got over something rough.
At first, I was functioning on some subconscious level, where I was there, but I wasn't. After that, the autopilot thing just stuck. Whenever some tragic shit happens now, I don't feel any emotional response at all, towards anything. I just fulfill my daily objectives like a robot, until the numbness goes away, then I have to release all that pent up energy. I usually smash things, burn through a couple mags at the range, or I go for a very long run.