yes, I want to whine. This is the second Monday in a row that my son's caregiver didn't show up and I have to cancel my plans to give out lunches at the church. In fact, in the last 3 weeks, even though I'm suppose to have a caregiver every weekday, I've had one for no more than 4 days..... The company can't seem to get it's act together. I'm depressed to the point that I don't have nightmares when I sleep, I have mean dreams. Dreamed somebody told me she wished I'd die, so in my dream I just shut down and tried to do that every thing. It's not so much that I mind taking care of my own sun, it's that I feel trapped and want to get out...Heck I have things I have to do and I can't do them with my son along. So much for the dream of getting a job outside of the home.... no thank you, no cheese with this whine....just wanted to whine.