My cousin overdosed on beta blockers.

[CitizenPained]

She is most likely not going to make it.

My mother and my cousin aren't that far apart in age. They grew up together. My cousin's children - my second cousins - are my age. Their daughters are three and eight (my son is six and a half). The youngest, 'Breezy', turned three today.

This is all kinds of suck.

She was an extremely pretty, smart, and funny girl growing up. She lost her way to drinking, drugs, and mental illness, with the last ten years being better than the previous ten. She's a handful, but she's not a mean woman. It's hard to explain. I love my cousin and I am sympathetic to her suffering.

Ana el na rafa na la (Please God, heal her) was the best comfort I could offer my mother. One, I'm rather ambivalent about God (though I'm hoping for a miracle) and two, what the hell?! Death is awkward. Families are awkward. Crying sniffling blowing your nose into the phone mom is awkward. My grandmother, who lives with my aunt & uncle, is going to take this extremely hard. (They aren't telling her anything yet, which I think is wrong.)

i feel extremely uncomfortable.

 

[strollingbones]

i am sorry for your pain.

 

[Dabs]

I am so very sorry to hear this. I can tell you that I will keep you and yours in my thoughts~

 

[Kiki Cannoli]

((citizenpained & cousin & family))

I am sorry to hear of this bad news.

 

[Two Thumbs]

I wish you and yours the best of luck.

Hopefully this is a failed attempt and she has another chance to get to the source of her pain.

 

[Warrior102]

She is most likely not going to make it.

My mother and my cousin aren't that far apart in age. They grew up together. My cousin's children - my second cousins - are my age. Their daughters are three and eight (my son is six and a half). The youngest, 'Breezy', turned three today.

This is all kinds of suck.

She was an extremely pretty, smart, and funny girl growing up. She lost her way to drinking, drugs, and mental illness, with the last ten years being better than the previous ten. She's a handful, but she's not a mean woman. It's hard to explain. I love my cousin and I am sympathetic to her suffering.

Ana el na rafa na la (Please God, heal her) was the best comfort I could offer my mother. One, I'm rather ambivalent about God (though I'm hoping for a miracle) and two, what the hell?! Death is awkward. Families are awkward. Crying sniffling blowing your nose into the phone mom is awkward. My grandmother, who lives with my aunt & uncle, is going to take this extremely hard. (They aren't telling her anything yet, which I think is wrong.)

i feel extremely uncomfortable.

Sorry my dear. Horrible.

 

[CitizenPained]

<3 Thanks, guys. Prayers are welcome. Of course I've been uttering them all day, but...

 

[Sallow]

Sorry to hear such awful news.

 

[Mr. H.]

Sorry for the news. What a way to go.
My younger brother is bi-polar with some schitzophrenia but for now the meds have him calmed and rational.

 

[DiAnna]

What a horrible tragedy for your family. I'm so very sorry. My thoughts are with you.

 

[Tank]

Did she try to kill herself?

 

[CitizenPained]

Yes, and she succeeded. She passed about an hour ago. <sigh> Her daughters are 24 and 28. Her granddaughter just turned three today...I feel sorry for my cousin Emily. Her mom dying (from suicide, no less) on her daughter's birthday? Her mom was the well-loved 'black sheep' of the family (who was never excluded from anything, but you know what I mean). My mom says my aunt can't even cry yet. She told my mom, "I just keep thinking about when I brought her home from the hospital and all I can remember are her little feet."

 

[Rat in the Hat]

Deepest condolences for your loss, CP. You all will be in the Rat family prayers.

 

[Warrior102]

Yes, and she succeeded. She passed about an hour ago. <sigh> Her daughters are 24 and 28. Her granddaughter just turned three today...I feel sorry for my cousin Emily. Her mom dying (from suicide, no less) on her daughter's birthday? Her mom was the well-loved 'black sheep' of the family (who was never excluded from anything, but you know what I mean). My mom says my aunt can't even cry yet. She told my mom, "I just keep thinking about when I brought her home from the hospital and all I can remember are her little feet."

I am so sorry.
I know the "I can't cry yet" feeling. When my Mom died in January, I was there - went home. Nothing. Next day - and even some days still - basket case.
My prayers are with you and the family darling.
I am sorry.

 

[Tank]

Hopefully she is in a better place

 

[whitehall]

There is no up-side to O.D.ing on beta blockers. There is no feeling of euphoria. Your heart slows down until your organs quit working or your brain starts to die. It's a messy way to commit suicide.

 

[jillian]

She is most likely not going to make it.

My mother and my cousin aren't that far apart in age. They grew up together. My cousin's children - my second cousins - are my age. Their daughters are three and eight (my son is six and a half). The youngest, 'Breezy', turned three today.

This is all kinds of suck.

She was an extremely pretty, smart, and funny girl growing up. She lost her way to drinking, drugs, and mental illness, with the last ten years being better than the previous ten. She's a handful, but she's not a mean woman. It's hard to explain. I love my cousin and I am sympathetic to her suffering.

Ana el na rafa na la (Please God, heal her) was the best comfort I could offer my mother. One, I'm rather ambivalent about God (though I'm hoping for a miracle) and two, what the hell?! Death is awkward. Families are awkward. Crying sniffling blowing your nose into the phone mom is awkward. My grandmother, who lives with my aunt & uncle, is going to take this extremely hard. (They aren't telling her anything yet, which I think is wrong.)

i feel extremely uncomfortable.

I'm so sorry. Ana el na rafa na la is sometimes all we got.

*Edit* I am very sorry for your loss.

 

[freedombecki]

Sorry for yours and your family's loss, CitizenPained. My prayers.

 

[Big Black Dog]

Deeps regrets. So sorry.

 

[The_GiantNoodle]

Yes, and she succeeded. She passed about an hour ago. <sigh> Her daughters are 24 and 28. Her granddaughter just turned three today...I feel sorry for my cousin Emily. Her mom dying (from suicide, no less) on her daughter's birthday? Her mom was the well-loved 'black sheep' of the family (who was never excluded from anything, but you know what I mean). My mom says my aunt can't even cry yet. She told my mom, "I just keep thinking about when I brought her home from the hospital and all I can remember are her little feet."

Well this has destroyed my good mood. I am HORRIBLY sorry. This is tragic. Why would someone do this to themselves? I guess when youre on drugs you just dont think well. I am SO very sorry. I wish i could so how help. Horrible horrible thing.