Kurt Cobain- Tragedy- In Utero secret song is strongly connected to suicide letter

[JD_2B]

September 13, 1993- In Utero is released. Within that CD was the infamous secret song.. Which I dissected here: http://www.usmessageboard.com/1905465-post66.html

Kurt killed himself, by giving himself a higher dosage than usual of heroine (he had a tolerance, and the heroine levels he had were probably due to the frequent usage, along with some extra to dull the pain of shooting himself) on April 8, 1994.

As for his suicide letter.. It was NOT a formal break up to his wife, obviously. It was a break up letter to his work, his wife, his daughter, his band, his former enthusiasm, his hate, his depression, his drugs, and ultimately, himself.

This is the text of his suicide note..

To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

And as you will see by clicking the above link, as well, the final song of the final album, was a suicide SONG. Kurt was reaching out for some mental help, which would never come.

I don't know how much this has been discussed by people in the past, because I have never been a big Nirvana fan, aside from a few songs in particular, like heart shaped box, and that is only because the tune itself was just catchy and addictive. So, please forgive me if I am not entirely up to speed on all of the Cobain "murder conspiracy theories", and such. I strongly believe he killed himself, and see no reason why anyone else would believe that the secret song was about anything else besides suicide, and Kurt's personal hell.

 

[7forever]

It's referred to as prepotency.

the definition of prepotency

 

[Turtlesoup]

September 13, 1993- In Utero is released. Within that CD was the infamous secret song.. Which I dissected here: http://www.usmessageboard.com/1905465-post66.html

Kurt killed himself, by giving himself a higher dosage than usual of heroine (he had a tolerance, and the heroine levels he had were probably due to the frequent usage, along with some extra to dull the pain of shooting himself) on April 8, 1994.

As for his suicide letter.. It was NOT a formal break up to his wife, obviously. It was a break up letter to his work, his wife, his daughter, his band, his former enthusiasm, his hate, his depression, his drugs, and ultimately, himself.

This is the text of his suicide note..
And as you will see by clicking the above link, as well, the final song of the final album, was a suicide SONG. Kurt was reaching out for some mental help, which would never come.

I don't know how much this has been discussed by people in the past, because I have never been a big Nirvana fan, aside from a few songs in particular, like heart shaped box, and that is only because the tune itself was just catchy and addictive. So, please forgive me if I am not entirely up to speed on all of the Cobain "murder conspiracy theories", and such. I strongly believe he killed himself, and see no reason why anyone else would believe that the secret song was about anything else besides suicide, and Kurt's personal hell.

He was a self absorbed, self centered diva---that took no empathy on his child for what his actions would do to her long term. He was an ass.