In all seriousness.. I often had times when I wanted to leave the Christian 'faith'. I admit.. I even tried to open an account with a ex christian forum.. I had to wait too long for a response so I dissed that too. It isn't about patience. I think I know what it's about.. for myself. It's about this. When They are All together there, as in when They make sense, when They can be 'followed' along in logic and reason, then it's all okay. The problem starts when They don't seem to make sense. When there is no logic or reason that is 'follow-able'. And then to add to that, to those times, the need for 'self' to keep up with Them while They are making no sense, that is just sand to the sinking. So what to do next? Ditch the sinking ride and try to save your life.. After all the years of knowing just Whom and by Whom 'life' was being saved With and By, and even Because of, it comes to needing to ditch all those years spent.. not only in front of the t.v watching about Them, but actually living With Them. And it can get 'strange'; really really strange. But it happens. I guess it does.. After all, I see so many that already has 'jumped' ship to save their life. And yes, I admit, I tried also.... sort of.. but not being able to.... the planks weren't set out fast enough.. So I needed to get back on board... to save my life. But yes... it's when They don't make sense, regardless of 'faith'; after all if being persuaded that my death is much more imminent than Them being Good while on Their Ship, I guess 'faith' would be needing re-persuasion or edification. However, sometimes edification also is as rare as men who are upright in The Way and who have not gone after many inventions. This world is covered with asphalt.. Yeah, and? What do you mean, yeah, and? Think about it... If the majority of this planet might be covered under asphalt, how the heck is the Earth supposed to even be 'seen'? How is the Earth even supposed to be appreciated and the reason Praise is offered up? How? Are we to offer up Praise because the Earth is being 'covered' by asphalt? So sometimes the things of the world makes no sense and yet to hold on to life by holding onto Who They Are... that is 1 thing... but when even that relationship of self and Them begin making no sense and no logic and no way to keep up with 'no-sense-ibilty', the only thing 'self' might be able to do next is to 'save' life.