Dabs
~Unpredictable~
6 years ago, on November 14, 2005....I lost my best friend, my Mother, to cancer.
I call that date her "Angel Day" because to me, anniversary sounds celebratory, and I don't wish to use that as a term for my Mother passing away. Angel Day is perfect, for she is an Angel now, watching over me!
My Mother was one of a kind, we shared such a special bond.....she loved me unconditionally, never found fault with me for anything......always stood beside me, and she could tell if something was bothering me, from the minute I walked into the room.
We never had a fuss...none. Even my Dad mentioned that when she passed away.
We just got along so well.......people were envious of our relationship.
I adore my Mother, she taught me all the good I know......I miss her smile when I walked into her living room, how she would always get up to greet me (oxygen tubes trailing along)....just to give me a big ole hug and kiss.
I can close my eyes and see her smile, and even at times, I smellher scent- the perfume she wore.
This date, plus Mother's Day and her birthday, are so difficult for me to get thru.
I try very hard to not let it consume my every thought, but it's no use. I can remember every little detail of what I was doing on this date, 6 years ago.
I recall feeling like a zombie, but I remember, all to well.
My Mother left me too soon. I would give anything to have had her living for a while longer. I have had a bad day all day, complete with headache, and I know why. It's because in the back of my mind, I knew this date was fast approaching....and here it is.
I have this huge hole in my heart, that seems to never fill.
But this too shall pass....every year it always does. I have talked to doctors about this, and they told me some people just can't accept or 'get over' a terrible loss in their lives, especially when that someone is so close.
She was only 66 when she left me........I just wish to say, I miss you Mother and I'm loving you always *smiles*
I call that date her "Angel Day" because to me, anniversary sounds celebratory, and I don't wish to use that as a term for my Mother passing away. Angel Day is perfect, for she is an Angel now, watching over me!
My Mother was one of a kind, we shared such a special bond.....she loved me unconditionally, never found fault with me for anything......always stood beside me, and she could tell if something was bothering me, from the minute I walked into the room.
We never had a fuss...none. Even my Dad mentioned that when she passed away.
We just got along so well.......people were envious of our relationship.
I adore my Mother, she taught me all the good I know......I miss her smile when I walked into her living room, how she would always get up to greet me (oxygen tubes trailing along)....just to give me a big ole hug and kiss.
I can close my eyes and see her smile, and even at times, I smellher scent- the perfume she wore.
This date, plus Mother's Day and her birthday, are so difficult for me to get thru.
I try very hard to not let it consume my every thought, but it's no use. I can remember every little detail of what I was doing on this date, 6 years ago.
I recall feeling like a zombie, but I remember, all to well.
My Mother left me too soon. I would give anything to have had her living for a while longer. I have had a bad day all day, complete with headache, and I know why. It's because in the back of my mind, I knew this date was fast approaching....and here it is.
I have this huge hole in my heart, that seems to never fill.
But this too shall pass....every year it always does. I have talked to doctors about this, and they told me some people just can't accept or 'get over' a terrible loss in their lives, especially when that someone is so close.
She was only 66 when she left me........I just wish to say, I miss you Mother and I'm loving you always *smiles*
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