Ever Been So Lonely You Could Cry?

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    One of those nights/early mornings.... not even any alcohol consumption this time. Times like these make me wish I was still at sea and not back on land.

    I do wonder how it is that some people are perfectly content with themselves, others are constantly with others and the ones left have an uncomfortable third option, neither comfortable with people or at ease with themselves.

    The third option is a downer for sure.

    I've lived the third option for 21 years now, pretending from time to time to be one of the other two types in order to placate concerned people.

    Well... that's enough complaining about life for me at 5 am.

    I wish you all a good weekend, and if you happen to have experienced this as well, or been one of these people.... would love to hear your own idea about this dreadful state of melancholy that afflicts at least a third of us.
     
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    1) Why don't you like people?
    2) Why don't you like yourself?
    3) Why can't you do both?
    4) Why do you feel you need to pretend for others?
     
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    I like people, I like helping them with their problems, I like seeing their happiness and their success. At times I just get the blues and become anti-social, not in a mean or nasty way, just in a "uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh" kind of way.

    I've never liked myself

    I can like others but not myself.

    Because If I don't pretend others will not leave me alone about it and it becomes a favorite topic in discussions and conversations better suited around other things, like their lives, their happiness, their experiences, etc etc.
     
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    I think I know what NATO is talking about. I'm very introverted by nature. It takes effort, and is very draining, to be in large social situations. I'd much rather be by myself. I never was aware, though, that there were people in the middle.
     
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    This might sound off topic but do you write/paint/sculpt/ anything like that?
     
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    Yep, there's that middle. And it is frustrating :bangheads

    I love crowds.... don't mind attention, don't mind the focus being on me. But at some point, over and over again, the off switch is hit and all of a sudden I just want to not talk or be around anybody.

    I'm sure there are others like this... well, I think there are others like this.
     
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    I write, but for the past few years all I have been able to adequately write about is world events I am focused on. I have lost the gift of narrative detail and of storytelling, now my pen is attached to my paper as a mouthpiece of my feelings about what is happening to others.

    :), lovely situation here
     
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    My off switch goes off all the time... it's nothing abnormal.
     
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    Are you sure you are not bipolar?

    This sounds much like clinical depression that will come along with the down side of Bipolar disorder.

    I know there was a time I have felt this way.
     
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    People would never believe that MM & I are both shy people. Him being an entertainer (in every sense of the word) and me bartending. And both of us being creative (hence my question to Nato) we are alone people. I sometimes wonder how we ever got together. Or how we stay together.
    YES! It is very exhausting to go out to these clubs, set up equipment, and be "up" all night, enjoying the crowd. It is a real effort. And when you add grief to that mix....well people just don't understand.....especially me. Most of the time I can hang, but sometimes I just have to go off to myself.
     
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